Moving on from the last post...


What should I be for Halloween? I'm going for fairly original and sexy without being totally slutty. Suggestions?

...and that's to post when I'm feeling upset and bitchy.

So, Army Boy, right? He was coming back to KY last week, and we've talked on the phone and written letters all summer. He knows things about me that my best friends don't, and goddamnit, if I wasn't excited that he was coming back. 

The back story here is that we were semi-involved March-May of '08, but then he got shipped off and to deal with it, I stopped talking to him completely. I just didn't want to see him or be reminded. Then he started being a whiney bastard about it, and I was even more glad that I stopped seeing him. We reconciled over the summer full of letters and calls, and I thought we were at least friends again, and that we'd be more.

So he got home and spent the first night with me. We had sex, of course. I knew something was wrong that night, but I didn't want to get into it yet because he was going to be spending most of the first week with his parents and with the two of us, waiting a problem out usually brings clarity to the situation. That night I also noticed that one of his dog tags wasn't his... it was so me broad's named Vanessa. Classy, eh? When I questioned him about it, he flat-out lied about their relationship, saying she was in the unit he was transferring to and that they army did that as some kind of official transfer thing. I called HUGE BULLSHIT on that, since I have two family members who were formerly in the army, plus... that story smells.

Question #1: Why bother lying about her to me? We weren't dating, and we weren't planning to. I would have been happy that he'd found someone he had more in common with and could see often. That was the plan, or so I thought.

Later, he tells me that he has to go back to Illinois to visit his aunt who lives there, and then come back to KY to get his things and move to Missouri, where he's supposed to start Army Special Forces training. The problem there is... his aunt and uncle live in Missouri... Vanessa lives in Illinois. Hmph. How about that?

Question #2: Why lie a SECOND TIME and tell me that he wasn't seeing this girl, AND that he was going to see his family??? Ordinarily, I would not flip my shit over this... it's the fact that he's so goddamned full of LIES.

He deleted me from facebook and myspace, and apparently blocked me on msn messenger. His profile picture, today, is of the two of them together. It's new, and he's OBVIOUSLY in Illinois seeing this girl for a week.

NOW, in conclusion... Why would he do that? Is it to get back at me for hurting him at the beginning of the summer? To let me like him and then deny me? How fucking childish is that? god.

And he's right... it does hurt. My poor little girly feelings are hurt. I am honest with people. If I love you, I tell you. And by god, I did tell him I loved him. He told me that all summer. If I want to date you, I tell you. If I want to date you and several other people, I let them all know so they can agree with my plan or not. So is it too much to expect honesty from others?

Now, if I tell him how I feel, he knows he's made me upset. I swear, I have cried more about this guy than any in the last year and half. That should probably be a clue.

I finally have internet access in my very own home again!!!!! Thank you: Justin Goldstein, Linksys, and the various unsecured wireless networks in a college town. :D

So, on day three: no one wants to employ someone with little experience and no qualifications. How about that. Seriously, where are the jobs that people start out with? I had the world's shittiest job this summer and I thought that there would be something better on the next go around. I really. really. reallllly don't want to work fast food. It's starting to look like that's where I'm headed. Also, all of the drawing I classes are full, so I'm going to have to go through getting an override. That'd be fine, except they won't give an English major an override for an art-majors-only class... and for some reason my major did not get changed like it was supposed to have. wtf.

I'm very behind on everything I needed to do, and it all just caught up with me. I don't want to not go back to school this semester, but it's looking very impractical to try.

*sigh*

Yesterday Savannah and I got back from War. While we were gone, her mom organized and cleaned our apartment. Clearly, Savannah's mom is made of 300% FREAKING AMAZING. After we trudged up our (too-steep) stairwell 8 times unloading our garb and herd of baskets, we both crashed. I went to bed at probably 9pm and didn't get up until 9am.

Right now, I'm supposed to be applying to various retail stores and updating my resume. Instead, I'm catching up on all of my internetting.  (It's a word! almost...) I think that today I'll mosey on down to a restaurant near my apartment and see if they're hiring servers. That sounds like a better plan than fast food. Boo on fast food.

I have my plans laid out... now I need to implement them.

Current Mood: calm